Stupid
I just had the stupidest fall this morning! I was getting late for work so I rushed to get to the office. There is a little slope from where I parked my car to the office and because it is autumn (or winter), leaves were all over the road. I slipped and fell on my butt while walking down the slope. So embarrassing!! I hurt myself too! I have internal bleeding in my thumb now. haha..
Speaking of stupid, I was pulled over by the cops the other day for the most stupid reason! I was making a right hand turn at the light and the light was green. Cars going on the straight lane were all going straight and I know that no cars will be able to turn so I went ahead and turned into the outer lane.
Great job.. cuz there was a police car behind me. I was heading to Kroger and thought "hai.. since Im already getting a ticket for whatever reason, must as well make the police follow me to Kroger" and I did. HAHA... The guy was so mad when I finally stopped, when he came over, he was like "Are you from Alabama?" I went "Yea I was but I just moved over to GA so I have a GA license." And he said "You are not supposed to turn into the outer lane straight away when you are turning. You have to turn into the inner most lane and then signal yourself out. alright gimme your license and stay in your car, I'll be back."
I was so angry because I had no job and while since I graduated till that day (with no job), I got 2 tickets. 1 when I got lost and 1 while driving from Bham to Auburn. I think I almost got that job but I don't wana live in Bham... Not after that ticket. And I never got a ticket until I graduated (with no job)!!! WTH. So evil.
Anyways, this policeman took way longer than both policemen before to write me a ticket (maybe he writes really slow). But after making me wait forever thinking about how I'm going to break this to my parents (AGAIN), he came back. And he asked "Are you Korean?" I'm like =S "No, I'm Chinese, but I'm from Singapore". I was already about to cry and you ask me if I'm Korean?? And then I blurted out "I'm sorry about turning like that I did not know..." And the police guy starting scratching away at the ticket and he said "I'm going to change this to a warning." I was like =D!!! So I looked up at him and saw for the first time he is pretty cute hahaha... and I asked him if he is korean and he said he is mixed korean and american. I was so happy that day!
My parents are the most wonderful parents in the world. They may not be rich or famous, but they are the best. They are always there for me, supporting me in every decision I make. I don't know what I will do without them.
Sometimes I feel that I wanna just move to LA and live with them again because the "family" feeling is really nice. However, when I think of that, I think that I will miss out the many chances of being independent. I know I've been pretty independent for a while (in most of the stuff except money), but I just wanna be able to "make it" by myself.
I'm graduating this weekend, and I haven't found a job yet. It is pretty worrisome. I told my mom that and she told me that if I need money, just get it from them. She gave me some advice but said that I should just think about things carefully and do what I really want to do. I feel bad for taking money from my parents. I just feel that I'm almost out of college, and once I'm out, I should be able to find a job that will let me feed myself.
Ahh... money will always be an issue if you are not rich. I need a job!
My professor read this work in class today and I know I know... Im a nerd. But I felt that it is very meaningful.
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The Station
by Robert J. Hastings
Tucked away in our subconscious minds is an idyllic vision. We see ourselves on a long, long trip that almost spans the continent. We're traveling by passenger train, and out the windows we drink in the passing scene of cars on nearby highways, of children waving at a crossing, of cattle grazing on a distant hillside, of smoke pouring from a power plant, of row upon row of corn and wheat, of flatlands and valleys, of mountains and rolling hills, of biting winter and blazing summer and cavorting spring and docile fall.
But uppermost in our minds is the final destination. On a certain day at a certain hour we will pull into the station. There will be bands playing, and flags waving. And once we get there so many wonderful dreams will come true. So many wishes will be fulfilled and so many pieces of our lives finally will be neatly fitted together like a completed jigsaw puzzle. How restlessly we pace the aisles, damning the minutes for loitering ... waiting, waiting, waiting, for the station.
However, sooner or later we must realize there is no one station, no one place to arrive at once and for all. The true joy of life is the trip. The station is only a dream. It constantly outdistances us.
"When we reach the station, that will be it!" we cry. Translated it means, "When I'm 18, that will be it! When I buy a new 450 SL Mercedes Benz, that will be it! When I put the last kid through college, that will be it! When I have paid off the mortgage, that will be it! When I win a promotion, that will be it! When I reach the age of retirement, that will be it! I shall live happily ever after!"
Unfortunately, once we get it, then it disappears. The station somehow hides itself at the end of an endless track.
"Relish the moment" is a good motto, especially when coupled with Psalm 118:24: "This is the day which the Lord hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it." It isn't the burdens of today that drive men mad. Rather, it is regret over yesterday or fear of tomorrow. Regret and fear are twin thieves who would rob us of today.
So, stop pacing the aisles and counting the miles. Instead, climb more mountains, eat more ice cream, go barefoot oftener, swim more rivers, watch more sunsets, laugh more and cry less. Life must be lived as we go along. The station will come soon enough.
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I will definitely eat more ice cream.
Last day of Undergraduate = 6/28/2008!!
Graduation date = 8/09/2008!!
Im graduating in August!! Excited......................................................................................................!!
Jay Chou is awesome
Duno if you guys saw this before but this is just so awesome.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=dhXNMcl9Et0
I feel weird
HEY CHANTAL!! Thank you so much... I can't wait for the present to get here!!! miss u so much too!!!
Today, I feel weird. It's peaceful. But feels kind of lonely. Mugen's awesome! I duno why I feel this way today. So weird.
I'm thinking about not doing anything to my car anymore. Just save up the money and get a new better car instead in the near future. I don't know.
I'm broke!
I want a rich boyfriend!!
I feel so weird.
*HUGS* TOTAL!
