火曜日, 7月 12, 2005

Guys... I can't understand them.

Alright. Do guys ever drop hints when they like a girl? Cuz if they do, I guess Kaz doesn't like me then. What kind of hints do guys drop? I really don't want to get myself all disappointed over Kaz again!

Remember Maiko? The girl who told me she liked Kaz? We're like really really good friends now. Cuz that day she told me her true feelings. She told me that she felt that ever since she told me she liked Kaz, our friendship seemed to be ruined. It seemed different than before. Then she told me that she really didn't like Kaz anymore, but another guy, who's also really nice. He's an American guy and yeah.. They are going to the movies today I think. Why can't Kaz and I progress like that? Oh yea Kaz doesn't have a car.. But... I'm just.. Envious. Maiko deserves it though. She is a great friend and a wonderful person. Anyway, friends become good friends when they tell each other their true feelings and yea. She's a great friend. We talk about lots of stuff and I like hanging out with her.

I hung out with Kaz yesterday. We were supposed to be studying English. But we only talked. He said he didn't feel like studying. I feel that he looks straight at me when he talks to me now a little more than before. Not like a lot. I'm the one who keeps looking at him. Haha.. But yea. I think he's dropping little hints telling me he doesn't like me though. He didn't say good night to me before going back to his room last night.

It's always me who starts a conversation with him in msn. I never dared to call him but he calls me when he wants to hang out. It's weird. My Taiwanese friend told me yesterday to 告白. Haha.. No way man. I would if I look like Kaela or Sheena Ringo but no I don't look like them. Nowhere near. So. No way would I have such confidence.

I hate it when I like a guy. Want so much to be with him but get all jittery when he's around. He's so cool and cute at the same time! How can anyone be like that! He's like a little child. But he's so cool though. And then I get sad when.. I don't know. I'm supposed to be happy. I'm hanging out with him more than before! I guess that's not enough for my heart.. : S

Does anyone know how I feel? Why do I have to feel like that. Can someone tell me the types of hints a guy drop to let a girl know he likes her? .. or doesn't?

Hebe jOtTeD dOwN heR tOtS aT 11:31 午前