木曜日, 7月 14, 2005

I hate feeling bad..................

I quit my job today and I feel really bad about it. Boss is bad, but I've made friends there, and they are really nice to me. I don't know. I told them that I would go visit after boss leaves. Not the real boss. His girfriend who I always call boss.

Kaz did study yesterday and he saw my personal message in msn I wrote ''please dont lie to me''. I don't know. I don't know what I'm doing. Maiko told me just now that Kaz asked her if I like him today in the afternoon. I guess my hints were kinda obvious. Maiko said she doesn't know to protect me. She's a wonderful friend. I don't know. I think that Kaz is not really happy with me right now, cuz if I were him, I would be pissed off. I didn't believe him even though he'd never lied to me before. I didn't talk to Kaz at all today. I don't know. I'm afraid that he might not talk to me ever again. If he doesn't like me, and I get to know about it, I would be crushed. Really.

It's stupid. I've just weaved myself out of this job trouble and here I am in trouble again. It sucks big time. Everywhere I turn, crap's being thrown at me.

Kaz is not online now. I think he's avoiding me.. Even though everything that I said I thought was always wrong, I have a feeling that I might finally be right this time. I'm sorry to have so many continuous depressing entries. But I'll try to cheer up. As Crayon SinChan said, Genki o daishite.

Hebe jOtTeD dOwN heR tOtS aT 10:20 午後