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I'm pretty pissed right now

Ever since I started World History, I stopped being happy. Why? I have no idea. The teacher sucks but that shouldn be able to stop me from being happy. I seem to have bad days everyday ever since that first day I went to class! Wtf.

I got the questions for exam on Friday. It was supposed to be on Thursday but he postponed it. It doesn't matter. I'm going to fail anyways. The questions are impossible. And I'm not smart. I thought about going to find him tomorrow to ask him for help but.. I think he dislikes me so I don't think he'll help me. Plus, I have to start working afternoons too from tomorrow on. It sucks. I've not been hanging out with my friends much at all. I have not drank for like a week plus. This sucks.

I don't know. I'm just not having a good week.

I tried to put more pictures into my photobook but the fucking thing kept going blank!!!!!! I want to show yall Kaz when he was drunk!!!! It's so cute. My friend put makeup on his face haha.. It's funny.. But. Too bad. Fuck it.

I saw Kaz yesterday when I went to my oniichan's room. He was really nice. His face kinda changed into this kinder, kinda like softer look. Know what I mean? I don't know if that's good or bad. I don't think I have a chance anyway. It's pathetic.

Oh ya I forgot. I went to class today and tried my best to pay attention. I really tried but for like just 3 minutes my mind decided to wander off and my teacher asked a question and called my name. My mind wandered off but I was listening. He didn't say anything about Idealist sia... Wth... The class has like at least 40 people. Why me? I have no idea. I believe that he doesn't like me at all. He said "she's surprised because I called her name and she had no idea that I knew her name.. blah.." or something like that. Hell of cuz I'm surprised. Just keep on picking on me. I won't cry. I'm going to go to your office tomorrow and waste lots of your time by asking you to help me with the questions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I did not see Kaz today at all. My oniichan had his hair braided. I'm going to take pictures and hope that the stupid blogger images thingy would work.

つかれた。。。。 I am soooo tired. I'm so not looking forward to that test on Friday but I'm looking forward to drinking. Don't even know if they'll be drinking on Friday.. Ah........ I hope tomorrow will get better. No. I KNOW tomorrow WILL be better. YES. Gotta encourage myself. Tomorrow IS going to be SO MUCH BETTER!!!!!!!

Hebe jOtTeD dOwN heR tOtS aT 10:15 午後