逃げた魚は大きい

Please don't lie to me....

I've just returned from my talk with my brother's and my friend, Brian. He's a great guy. Nice and friendly and caring.

Remember the confusing entry yesterday? I've got everything worked out now. =D I'm going to quit my job at Panda. I don't want to be another victim. I'm going to another restaurant tomorrow called Mandarin House to see if they could give me a job. I really really hope that they will cuz I need money to spend in New York. Work kinda sucks at Panda anyways. I had fun but hey I did like everything for... $5.25 an hour? Angela!!! I should have listened to you and looked for another job man!!! My talk with Brian had been enlightening. No way am I going to work at Panda anymore after this paycheck. No way.... I want to be nice but I don't want to be stupid. I went talk to Brian's girlfriend too. Encouraged her to go to Panda tomorrow to talk to miss nice boss. We shouldn't let people take advantage of us. Talking to her made me want to quit work at Panda even more! But patience!!! Gotta go act normal tomorrow too! But it should be quite easy for me. I think.

I went to look at my future apartment too and Brian's apartment and his girlfriend's apartment haha.. I think it's quite ok except I haven looked at the inside. It should be fine.. Should be better than Commons.. Oh ya... i just changed my song to さくらんぼ by 大塚愛. If you go to my photobook you'll be able to see her picture and the middle picture is the sign she always makes in this song when she sings ''あなたとわたしさくらんぼ！".. Haha.. I've changed my title and the description to match this happy song haha.. I'm sorry this entry does not really fit... Tomorrow will be better.

Anyways, the title of this entry is what I really want to say to Kaz today, now. I asked him if I could hang out with him today but he said he had to study and asked me if tomorrow's possible. Of cuz I said yes. But when I returned from my 'trip', I think I heard his voice in Seiji's room. What else would he be doing in Seiji's room besides playing games? No, I don't think I heard his voice. I know I heard his voice. I'm sensitive to his voice always. I mean, if you want to hang out with your friends just tell it to me straight. It's not like it's going to hurt my feelings or something. It's very much better than lying to me and then letting me find out. If he wants to spend a day with his friends and not me it's ok! It's not like I'm his girlfriend or something. Even if I am, I wouldn't mind it if he wants to hang out with his pals for a few days. I'm heartbroken and disappointed.

Hebe jOtTeD dOwN heR tOtS aT 11:10 午後