I should stop blaming people on things that don't go my way man. That hostess thingy, I admit, I'm partly at fault too. I'm lazy. I think my boss wants me to be a hostess too but I'm lazy. Don't really know how to say it but like, I kinda get pissed cuz I do most of the stuff that waitresses do but I get less plus I don't get tips. I mean, I get paid more than most people or waitresses in other restaurants (I think) but man I think it's not really fair. But, as Jin said, reality bites, and this is just the beginning of being in the real world without mummy and daddy to protect me. I talked to Mummy about it and she told me boss most probably wants me to be a 'vase' you know what I'm saying. My waitress friend from there says that too, that I'm too 'cute' to be a waitress but man I don't care about my looks, I care about what I get paid man. But as I said, I'm lazy. When boss told me that I didn't work hard enough, that I need to be louder and stuff, I was thinking in my mind: man that other waitress speaks softly too. And I get pissed when I see new waiters or waitresses and I'm still stuck being a hostess you know. And when I get pissed I kinda don't care anymore about what's happening I just stand there you know haha.. Attitude girl. I gotta change that attitude of mine. My waitress friend, Cindy, gave me lots of helpful tips too. She's so nice. She said I could get tips too when people have carry out orders... I have to say that I respect her quite abit. She's hardworking and smart. Unlike me...
Iono man... Sometimes I just wish that I'm back to when I was like 6 or 7 years old you know, when mummy and daddy stand by me and protect me and kinda spoil me. When I like, duno, don't really have to face stuff like that. Man. I'm happy that I have a job and stuff. But life is so much easier being a child.
And sometimes I'm afraid. You know, I'm afraid that I might get cheated or something. I don't really know who to trust you know what I'm saying. Of cuz, I trust my mummy and daddy and my immediate family. It's just, it's not enough. I want to trust someone else, a friend, you know, and not the ones I had from Singapore. I mean, I trust yall, definitely, but it's just different cuz yall are like 20+hours away from me. Alright I'll say it. I wanna have a boyfriend so I can trust him and stuff you know. And man is it difficult to find one cuz I'm afraid....
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